221/365 Now Go Create
In 2010 my Canon EOS 30D was stolen. I lived in Irvington at the time, in a neighborhood just feet away from drugs, guns, and alcohlic rantings.
I had taken the camera to work with me and afterwards, I placed it on the back seat of the car while I drove home. A friend of mine was going through a crisis, calling me for support throughout the day. I answered one call on the way home, a call that carried into the house where I dropped my purse and continued listening and talking.
The next day, I went out to the car. It was unlocked, which concerned me, but I was headed to work so I didn’t think more about it. Down the street I saw my wallet lying in the road. What?! I stopped to pick it up. Empty. Confused, I thought back to why it wouldn’t be in my purse, then remembered taking it out as I rummaged through the purse looking for my phone. Distracted by the phone call, I failed to put the wallet back.
Where’s your camera?
My stomach twisted and I turned to see if it was on the back seat. Gone!
Maybe I took it into the house and didn’t remember doing that? I turned the car around and went back to the house. Clammy fingers tightened on the house key as I opened the door. I scoured the house, frantic, searching for the camera bag. Not there. My camera was not in the house!
I slumped onto the couch and gave in to tears.
Over months and years I had saved to buy the camera and all the external gear. It was my camera. To start over again was financially too much for me.
To the outside world, I looked upbeat, but at home, I cried. My stolen camera came at a difficult time in my life, a time of significant loss. Relationships were dissolving. I had little in reserve for creativity. Photography kept me going, but with the camera gone, photography was fading, much like my spirit. I didn’t even pull out my point-and-shoot.
A few months later, I entered my office and found a package on my desk, and in that package was this:
Please read the note in the photo. To this day I still don’t know who gave me this generous gift, and that’s ok, because that means it could be anyone.
This gift renewed my spirit and I started coming back. Over the months, I’ve been able to replace many of the stolen accessories. There are still a few things I’m missing, but in time I’ll have them all back. I am forever grateful to this anonymous giver. I keep this story in me at all times.
And I love the directive:
Now go create.






What a wonderful thing for someone to do! I’m all choked up.
June 10, 2012 at 2:00 pm
Whenever I share this story, it never fails to rekindle hope in others. This person’s generosity has been a gift far beyond the physical gift of the camera. I understand the sentiment you feel because I continue to feel it every time I think about this. I can only hope to one day be as generous to someone else.
June 11, 2012 at 6:12 am
What a touching act of kindness!
June 10, 2012 at 3:42 pm
I keep hoping that as I live life, I can take the spirit of this person and return it to the world. It was a very generous and kind thing to do and the only way I know how to pay it back is to pay it forward…be kind to others in big and little ways. Thank you, Graham.
June 11, 2012 at 6:33 am
Thanks for sharing this touching story, Dezra. Reminds me of the words from the Wizard of Oz to the Tin Man: “A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others.”
June 12, 2012 at 7:30 am
Thank you, Sheila. I don’t quite know what else to say.
June 12, 2012 at 7:33 am
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